Thursday, September 4, 2008

Damn! Now What!

I am going to spill a few things here now- things I haven't told my other friends yet. It's been a hell of a few months- my boss was in a bad car wreck and broke his back. Then his house caught fire and then our shop flooded. Yep! All this and more. I have kept his shop together, mopped up the flood waters and held his and his families hands. I've BEEN there! And today he let me go. Yep. Just like that- no more job for the Gun Goddess. I should have expected it I suppose, but does one ever suspect being thrown into the fire? I know he's not doing it from anger or anything, but the economy is bad, and he is hurting in more ways than I can imagine, and I am expensive to keep. So BYE BYE to me.

Don't tell me the God/ window thing, or that everything happens for a reason. I know all of that. I keep thinking that this is my opportunity to write full time. But the real self, the one that feeds the pony everyday, is going " HOLY SHIT! NOW WHAT!"

The Greatest Hubby in the World says not to worry, he'll help out. (((yikes))) he dosen't even know how much the horses cost! He's never had to know- I've always had a good job!
I'm a litttle freaked out! I'm a little bit anxious! It feels kind of like having a tooth pulled out with no novicain!
Thanks for listening dear friends. I'll be ok now. ... Really.....I will.

4 comments:

Cheryl said...

Okay. That IS scary! Good luck! My husband DOES know how much our horses cost. I used to spend that much on extra stuff like shoes and clothes! HA! NO MORE!

Adventures Of A Horse Crazed Mind said...

Wow, I think that would scare the bajeezes out of just about anyone. You are totally entitled to a freak out session (as I call them). This is the end of something but at the same time, it is the START of something new too! One chapter closed. Another just begun! As for the horses....hmmm....no advice there!It is amazing how me manage to keep the juicy little details on my things REALLY cost to ourselves. Remember, its all about perspective. Good luck!

Pony Girl said...

Oh goodness, that sucks, I'm sorry to hear that news. Stinker boss! Okay, no windows here. But, everything will work out somehow, it always does, even if not right away and things are challenging for a bit. Is there something else you've wanted to do? Another lead on a job? Something that will feed the pony and fulfill your writing passion?

Train Wreck said...

Oh ! I can understand a little freakin out! WOW! I would do the same! You write? Well there you go! Think what a great story this will make in a few years as you sit by your pool,with your book on the best seller list!!